That's not fair.
I wanted to talk about something before. Ai Kago attempted suicide yesterday morning. Take for anyone you want, she is probably just another ex-idol like others and some of you dislike her but she is important to my eye. She is a strong woman. She learned me so much. Remember, she was this beautiful idol, funny and crazy with her doppleganger friend, Tsuji Nozomi, they used to be my favourite Morning Musume. They were funny and pretty and I loved all this energy that they were used to bring during concerts, songs, ect... They were W. But then...Kago-san begun to smoke, just to look casual and class like a real woman...but she wasn't yet. She also prefered older man for some reason which are personnal I guess, and a day, a picture was taken. Smoking and dating a very older man (about 40 years old whereas she was 18) and it was the decrease of her career as idol. All W activities were cancelled at this time if I'm not wrong and the band was over, moreover both (Aibon and Tsujiji) had already been graduated from Morning Musume and other sub-group like Tanpopo were out too so things were kind over but Kago-san was still a member of the Hello!Project. In fact, another picture of her still smoking while she wasn't 21 yet (majority in Japan) signed the end of her contract with the H!P and Tsunku. Besides, she was arrested for smoking under the legal age. Her life looked like a disaster. I didn't remember if her family supported her in this step of her life but I'm sure that they didn't realize at the beginning her distress. Anyway, she tried to kill herself. Her first try. Later, in some interviews that I watched on YT she talked about this experience with death and she promised to never do it again. She also made a book about this time of her life. In the interview, she said that she understood and she won't never let this kind of disaster to ruin her life again. She talked about this experience and she shared the reason why she did all those stuff. You gotta understand that japanese society is very different from occidental, making fault for someone as loved as a popular idol like Kago Ai is almost unforgivable. And there is no small crimes, to them she is supposed to show the model. The point is, that I am not here to denounce japanese society, I can't change it and in any societies there are imperfections so we gotta just accept it.

So back in Kago-san, I've just said that she wrote a book about this experience, ect.. and she also made interviews. In those, she explained how did she get better and how did she rise above this heavy page of her life. What I admired at this time, was the fact that she admitted her own mistakes and she forgave herself, I mean, after a suicide attempt....she was strong enough to threw it and me, my life was a mess I was growning up just like her but I hurted so baddly my parents and I realized it and it was like all was collapsing slowly aroung me. To listen her and to cry with her when she evocated all those...and then to laugh when I was watching her dressed as a nurse for preaching to young people in the streets helped me. It helped me so much more than you can think. It saved me, I was breaking down but I took confidence again thanks to her so...I'll always be grateful. Always. She'll always be my model.

Today, she is living something horrible, and I want her to think of this time, when she thought that everything was over in her life. I don't know what's wrong but I heard that something happened to someone that she loves. It's hard but please...we need you so stay. We are from all around the world and we support you, don't. Stay, and if now you are not strong enough, we'll be for you and we will help you as you did for us.